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What do you wish, hope or pray for this season? I’d love to know. 

I want to tell you a story about why Christmas is a big deal to me… and it has to do with my faith. ✝️

As a kid that struggled in school from kindergarten to 5th grade, I tried a lot of things to help ease my anxieties around going to school. 🙍‍♂️

Having spent no less than 1 day a week in the Vice Principal’s office and 3 to 4 recesses every week “posted” and unable to play with my classmates, I was scared to go to school. 😨

I faked being sick.🤒 I tried to convince my parents to homeschool me. I wished upon many stars and I prayed. Those were rough years. 

There were two pivotal moments that gave me relief: 

🌟 Relief #1: A Rock Bottom Promise

Somewhere around the end of my 3rd grade year, in my despair, I became aware that I could simply “unalive” myself and the whole thing would go away. I grabbed a kitchen knife 🔪 and tried to muster the energy to fall on it, chest first.

Something… no, someone stopped me.

It wasn’t my parents, nobody knew this story until just a few years ago.

A quiet voice, that I could only describe as Jesus himself, whispered, “It will get better.” It shocked me and I believed the voice. In that moment, Jesus became more than a nice idea and a bedtime story, He became, quite literally, my savior. 🕊️

Things did not get better right away. I still had to muster the energy and focus to endure two more years of difficult school years until…

🌟 Relief #2: A New Opportunity

A new school was built just before my 6th grade year and because I lived on the border, I had the choice to transfer. I did. And it made a huge difference. 🌈

At this school, the administration didn’t look at me as a problem. I was never, except for once, in trouble and I actually loved going to school. It was a fresh start. 🌤️

So, to me, Christmas 🎄 is a reminder of who made that promise to me ✝️ and the sacrificial nature of what it means to leave an eternal throne and be humbled to what was essentially a dark, dirty, stench-filled barn on a cold night in Bethlehem. 

You may not believe in the same things I believe and I’m not here to convince you, but I am here to share my experience and hopefully give someone else some hope in a time of year that can be filled with love and heartache. 🙏

So, whether you pray or not,

whether you believe in God or not,

I’m curious…

if you did pray,

or perhaps simply made a Christmas Wish,

be it on a star or anything else…

What would you wish, hope or pray for this Christmas season? 🙏🏻🌟

Cheering You On,

-Micah Foster, Co-Owner